“Despite having known so many friends, I still can’t get rid of that person that has his comfort zone right there in the corner – all alone.” - May 3, '09 12:06 PM | DRAFT
How much self-pity is there in this line? I pulled it up from an unpublished entry in my Multiply Blog, and was planning to keep it unheard of until now. I already came into the realization that I was thinking too much of things. (at last!) Too much, but all for nothing - I guess there was no sense at all the thinking. I get stressed and nothing changes. A lot of energy needs to be rechanneled to something productive. If I want to be alone, well, its just that I wanted to be - no need for other why's. Its a choice or preference, a part of being me.
*Got this from a Multiply Theme header. Just found it really cool.*I made a list of my targets. I came out of this after a long time of not being able to accept my additional one year, in the university - as an undergraduate. Maybe coming across this one is a sign that I should pursue things that are worth the time. Here goes:
1. to draw again
2. to write better
3. to speak better
4. to sing better
5. to touch lives
6. to be a better person
7. magkaluvlife!! Hahaha!
Ooops, seems like something is wrong with this list here, haha! (Cheezy ata? Haha!) But at the end of the day, I know I'm off to something with a new mindset. I'm gonna make this year count. Its not a delay, its just more time to prepare for the real world.