If I would describe 2011, it would be -- Comfortable in my own skin. This past year was about getting my self-esteem back. I've always felt like I'm nobody. I've been haunted by my mistakes, but in the last half of 2011, I was able to pull everything together. Running and career brought that back to me. Everything pays off, you'll just have to work really hard for it, with a pinch of patience.
My motivation for running was to fight hypertension. I've been diagnosed of hypertension back in college - those sleepless nights of studying and machine exercises. I would usually buy venti-sized coffee at Starbucks to keep me awake. Sometimes, I even ask for an extra espresso shot. I just love coffee so much, even on any other day. I was not aware that it was doing me harm already. I don't think it's the actual coffee, but of me staying up late, and even sleepless on some occasions. I just realized that lately. I eat healthy and I'm very active, that's why it was hard for me to accept that I'm broken. And finally, I found the pattern by how I find it hard to sleep lately - and so, my BP was going up again. I value my sleep more now. With running, I tire my body out so by night, I find it easier to sleep. Plus, I'm losing weight now. At the start of the year, I was doing gym, but was not able to lose substantially. Now, from 180 lbs, I'm a 168!
A career - that's what I've been really fighting for. I feel like I've been left behind - yes, I'm still not over that extra year in college, when I was targetting to graduate in four and a half years! Ever since, I've felt that obssession to work extra harder than others do. I just had my break the second half of this year. And as they say, you'll just have to act on it when you see a good opportunity. When I knew that I hopped on the right train, I just spent more hours in the office as I should be. If I want to be somebody, I just have to set my targets and work at it. I was competing with nobody else but myself back then. I triumphed. I now believe that I am capable of things. That, no one can take away from me. I will succeed further!
I just realized that it was totally normal to make big mistakes in your life; that it is better that you commit them early on your life. How cliche it may sound, they really teach you and make you as you are today. You will never really understand it until you've been through those hard times. Now, I bid 2011 farewell. To more successes in 2012!
My motivation for running was to fight hypertension. I've been diagnosed of hypertension back in college - those sleepless nights of studying and machine exercises. I would usually buy venti-sized coffee at Starbucks to keep me awake. Sometimes, I even ask for an extra espresso shot. I just love coffee so much, even on any other day. I was not aware that it was doing me harm already. I don't think it's the actual coffee, but of me staying up late, and even sleepless on some occasions. I just realized that lately. I eat healthy and I'm very active, that's why it was hard for me to accept that I'm broken. And finally, I found the pattern by how I find it hard to sleep lately - and so, my BP was going up again. I value my sleep more now. With running, I tire my body out so by night, I find it easier to sleep. Plus, I'm losing weight now. At the start of the year, I was doing gym, but was not able to lose substantially. Now, from 180 lbs, I'm a 168!
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| My first 21K - Adidas King of the Road, BGC. |
A career - that's what I've been really fighting for. I feel like I've been left behind - yes, I'm still not over that extra year in college, when I was targetting to graduate in four and a half years! Ever since, I've felt that obssession to work extra harder than others do. I just had my break the second half of this year. And as they say, you'll just have to act on it when you see a good opportunity. When I knew that I hopped on the right train, I just spent more hours in the office as I should be. If I want to be somebody, I just have to set my targets and work at it. I was competing with nobody else but myself back then. I triumphed. I now believe that I am capable of things. That, no one can take away from me. I will succeed further!
I just realized that it was totally normal to make big mistakes in your life; that it is better that you commit them early on your life. How cliche it may sound, they really teach you and make you as you are today. You will never really understand it until you've been through those hard times. Now, I bid 2011 farewell. To more successes in 2012!